Today is the 2nd anniversary of my mother's death. I thought that things would start to get easier by now, but not so ... I miss her so much!

It's been almost 8 months since my double lung transplant and the only thing that I wish is that mom could be here to see me and see this wonderful new life that I've been given. I know that she's watching over me and making sure that I'm OK, but it's just not the same. I can't really celebrate with her - apart from in my heart - which right now isn't cutting it.

Truly believe that my transplant and current health would not be as positive as it has been if it were not for those loved ones that I've lost throughout the years ... Matthew, Nan Whalen, Pop Whalen, Nan Halfyard, and of course Mom. It is with their strength and guidance that I've become the person that I am now.

I'm not the kind of person to have regrets or wish for things to be better - I take life as it is and work with what I'm given ... but today, I do WISH that mom was here ... I LOVE YOU!